Merry Christmas.

Today is my last weigh in before Christmas, I am nervous because I've been good but I don't think I've lost anything. Infact I think I have gained which is quite deeply disappointing but I've got my Christmas wish which was to get my 10st award, I also had a cheeky 5.5lb off on top of that which makes me 1.5lb away from next award. I'm not going to bank on receiving that tonight but if I do I'll be extremely made up. I said I was only going to have 4 days off plan over Christmas but I've changed my mind I'm not going to go over board but if I fancy something I will have it. I'm still going to be having slimming world meals so that counts for something, right?

I'm so excited for Christmas day,I get to spend it with my family but my dad has to go to work at 7pm which isn't fair at all. This is going to be a strange Christmas for us this year, as we won't be spending it with my Auntie Sonya who sadly passed away at the beginning of this year.We have always had Christmas dinner with my Auntie and Uncle but sadly thats not going to be the case this year. My Uncle isn't going to be spending it with us either as he is in a care home with Dementia. So this year is going to be tough and there will probably be a few tears. Myself and Ashley are going to be facetiming when he gets home from work which will be torture not being able to open presents all day haha! But we did it last year so it's important to us that we do it again this year as I like seeing his reaction to the presents I've got him. I'm spending Boxing Day at Ashleys which is going to be so much fun because his mum has ordered so much food. I'm foaming at the mouth just thinking of it all. I love food and I'm not going to deny myself any, Christmas comes but once a year so it isn't going to make me gain the 10st that I've lost.

I've had such an incredible weekend, I went to watch the final Hobbit movie in 3D with Ashley. Omg if you haven't been to see it yet, you need to! It was amazing. I filled up, laughed and got a little bit excited sometimes haha. I'm so sad it's all over now. I'm off college and placement for 2 weeks which is great but I do miss the two lovely ladies on my course that I sit with. It's nice to be able to make friends after being so scared of doing so for the past 5 years.

I'm excited to see what 2015 brings me, I just hope it doesn't bring any pain after what 2014 has brought me. Losing my Auntie on top of a lot of other things has been very difficult but I want 2015 to be brighter and happier thats all I can wish and pray for. I send you all my love and I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and New Year and all your dreams come true. I probably won't be blogging until after the New Year now as I don't think I'll have the time. I shall try and make time!

So much temptation.

I seriously don't know how I'm surviving right now. So much chocolate and biscuits etc in the house and I'm sat here having just put two eggs in to boil so I don't eat anything bad. I have two weigh in's left until christmas and I want to do well on both so I can enjoy my christmas. It's so frustrating though I hate saying no to chocolate, I look forward to monday nights after weigh in so much so I can eat like a complete and utter pig and not feel guilty. It's soul destroying having tubs of quality streets knowing I can't touch them because once I have 1 I'll want the tub. I shall stick to my 1 syn advent calendar chocolate every morning. I just wish I could be one of those people that can say bugger it it's christmas but I'm too scared to gain weight, it's a nightmare. I will be enjoying christmas day etc though because I think I deserve it.

This blog post is preventing me from scoffing so I'm sorry if this makes you want to eat all the food in your house. Just do what I'm doing two boiled eggs! Your arse may stink all night but at least you won't gain weight! Monday is only 2 days away, I'm looking forward to going out for tea Monday night and eating/drinking what I want.

I hope you've all had a great week and weekend. Good luck for next weeks weigh in's.

Another one bites the dust.

So tonight was weigh in and I lost 1lb, I'm super happy about this because I've not had losses for 7 weeks on the bounce for ages! Shows the plan still is working for me, I'm putting the work in and I'm getting losses back. They may not be big losses but to me they are. I've just pigged out not going to lie, but I shall be back on plan first thing in the morning. I've just made a quick syn free stir-fry for my dinner tomorrow at placement. I'm really looking forward to the Christmas holidays, only 2 more weeks to go after this week. I need to start finishing my christmas shopping now, I've still got so much left to do. I'm not worrying about the Christmas period this year I'm going to enjoy my 4 days off plan (Christmas day, Boxing day, New years eve and New years day) if I gain, I gain. It will be nothing to how much I've lost already.

I know every post consists of my boyfriend but this weekend has been so lovely. I've never been able to give my full attention to somebody for so long. May that because I've been cheated on or I just lose interest really easily. This time it's so completely different, I can't lose interest. Every bit of our relationship is exciting. A trip to Morrisons for some dinner is fun because he isn't boring and he makes me laugh until it hurts. I don't think anybody could possibly understand the connection and bond we have. He makes me feel like a princess but he also keeps me on my toes, I've never in my life met somebody that could make me so happy and feel so in love as I do with Ashley. I'd do anything in the world for him and I know he'd do the same, he's always got my back when everything feels too much for me. He's my bestest friend in the whole wide world and I never want to be without him. I know this may sound soppy and I'm a lot soppier than him because he will only ever tell me how he feels but I wouldn't give him up for all the money in the world.

I hope your all your weeks go well and weigh in's too.

10 stone lighter.

So as of Monday night I am now 10 stone lighter. I lost half a pound and received my 10 stone award, I am over the moon even if it was just half a pound. After all it was the half a pound I needed :D I now weigh 13st 11lb I'm hoping I can push for my 10 and a half stone award for christmas as there is still 4 weeks to do it 2lb a week and it will easily be mine. But even if I don't I got my christmas wish of getting my 10 stone award anyway.

I went to the christmas markets after weigh in on Monday night, I really enjoyed myself. It's lovely spending Monday nights with Ashley :) I'm off to Stoke tomorrow to spend the weekend at Ashley's house. I can not wait to see him, I've only been away from him for a day or so! I've not been very well the past couple of weeks so I'm hoping that will shift soon as the pain I'm going through is unbearable, I'm on so many tablets I could actually be a walking chemist!

I hope you are all having a good week and have a great weekend.

Jump up and down, do an extra wee!

So last week after losing half a pound this week I lost 2lb! This is awesome but.. when I stood on the scales it said 13.11 which I need to be for my 10st award but it kept flickering to 13.11 1/2 and then stayed. My consultant told me to go for an extra wee and jump up and down so I went and did that haha but it didn't work. Next week it will be mine, I'm so determined now I will get that half a pound off next week because my wall is longing for my next certificate! I'm so happy I'm still losing though and that I will get my christmas wish of my 10st award way before christmas arrives, this means I can attempt to at least be in the lower end of the 13st bracket before santa arrives. I want to be able to enjoy my christmas 10st lighter. I'm not going to go overboard all christmas, I'm just having christmas day, boxing day, new years eve and new years day off plan. I'm spending boxing day at Ashley's this year which will be lovely.

I had such a lovely weekend in Stoke, we went to watch Interstellar which is amazing.We went to the quarter to 11 showing and didn't get back until gone half 2 in the morning! I don't get to see Ashley until Sunday now which makes me sad because I hate being apart from him. I miss having lots of cuddles (we cuddle a lot).

I had some really sad news this dinner time too, my family doctor that I have for my 23 years of existence passed away over the weekend. I was heartbroken and I had to leave placement early, knowing him that long and have a lovely bond with him because he knew the in's and outs of my life. You could confide in him and he was an excellent listener. I also called him dad when I was 4 years old haha. I only saw him Friday morning and he couldn't believe how much I had changed as I hadn't been for a year. He told me how proud he was and how happy he is for me to be finally getting my life back and how much weight I have lost. He looked so well and happy like he normally does so to hear he had died a day later really upset me. It's going to be hard to find a doctor that will fill his boots now. On friday when I was leaving I said see you soon and he said not too soon I hope. I'm absolutely gutted. He will be deeply missed not just by me but all the 1,000s of patients that constantly ask for him when they go into the surgery.

I hope you all have an excellent week and weigh in goes well for you all.

ERMAHGLOB.

Okay so if you follow me on Instagram, Facebook and Twitter you've probably already seen this and know how extremely happy I am. I thought I'd bore you all on here too! I've just been to asda with my mum after town and I was saying to my mum how my size 14 coat was getting a bit big on me and I have to keep pulling the strings in so it fits, I saw a size 12 coat hung up so I decided to try it on to see if it would fit. Of course I assumed it wouldn't but what was the harm in trying? Asda's coats are really true to size as well as I've struggled in the past to fit into their coats. I tried the size 12 on and to my surprise and amazement it bloody fit me! It wasn't tight either. I didn't buy it because I love my red coat I got from Debenhams so I'm not ready to part with that just yet. But I am so happy to be able to say I fit into a size 12, I've gone from a size 28-30 so to me this is such an amazing moment I'm on cloud 9. 10 dress sizes dropped, it's gobsmacking. Slimming world has changed my life and I will forever praise their plan and recommend it so much to people that love food but want to lose weight.

This week I've not been feeling too great I have awful pains in my stomach and the right bottom side of my back. I don't think I will have a loss on Monday at weigh in but possibly a gain even though I've been really good. Hopefully I'm wrong and I will get what I want, which is to be in the 13st bracket. I hope your weeks are going well!

My sincere apologies.

Hi everyone, I am so so sorry I have completely abandoned my blog again! My life is just mayhem at the moment so I barely find the time to get on my laptop unless its to do my assignments. I'm in a very good place at the moment, I've started my placement at such a lovely day nursery. I'm really enjoying myself there and the compliments I receive whilst I'm there are overwhelming it's nice to know I'm doing a good job. I feel so comfortable and welcomed and everybody is just so nice. I am still sticking to slimming world and have been weighed tonight, I lost 1.5lb and I have now lost 9st 11lb which means I am 3lb away from receiving my 10st award! So excited! I weigh 14st exactly now, I really hope I can get into the 13st bracket next week, I will be over the moon and it will mean all this hard work is paying off.

I had my first observation at placement today, it went really well. I passed it with flying colours which I'm made up with. Even in all the hecticness that's going on I'm still spending time with my favouritest person in the whole world Ashley. He's been my biggest support through all of this, he's helping me so much. I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have him, I don't know what I've done to deserve him but I'm so glad he's mine. I really couldn't imagine my life without him nor do I ever want to. We've been together a year and 4 months on Saturday, I'm not seeing him until Sunday now though which makes me sad because whilst he's at my house Monday and Tuesday I'll be in placement but I get to spend the afternoon/evening with him. I can't wait!

I hope you all are doing swimmingly, Christmas is only 7 weeks away!!