Theres a beast and we all feed it.

Hello, HI, Bonjour etc etc. Sorry I haven't blogged in possibly a week or maybe more? I didn't check. But tonight's blog post is a special post, a very celebratory post at that! Why are we celebrating I hear you ask (You are probably not asking, and well in that case I look a bit silly) BUT! Tonight well yesterday since it's now Tuesday, I went to Slimming World after gaining 1.5lb last week (I'll explain why further down) and being 1lb away from my 7 and a half stone award, which meant this week I had to work extra hard and lose 2.5lb to get that award and this is the part where I blow your socks off! So prepare to be blown! I lost 2.5lb and got my 7 and a half stone award! I'm so happy, it's taken me weeks but I finally got there.

The gain last week was my own fault and mother natures fault too. But, I'm not sorry about that gain because for the first time in over 5 years I went out and enjoyed myself, I was very merry! Myself and Ashley went to a friends engagement party, I thoroughly enjoyed it. We requested stupid songs to the DJ, which he played! From Backstreet Boys - Everybody to Flash Gordon, we was on that dance floor strutting our stuff even if we did look like complete plant pots because we were the only ones doing so (we didn't actually care because we were very drunk at this point). So yeah, that gain was worth it!

Now I've got my 7 and a half stone award I'm now going to focus on my countdown I made today for London, I want to have lost another stone by January 13th which will make me 8 and a half stone lighter which thinking about it is quite bloody cool. I won't be attending weigh in next week because I get an extra day at Ashley's next weekend because he's off work on the Monday, so you will have to wait another 2 weeks until I can update my weight loss. I can't believe there is less than 2 weeks left of November! Where has this year gone?! I'm so excited for next Saturday, DOCTOR WHO!!!!!!

Hope you all had a good weekend and have a good week a head!

EL OH VEE E.

This post may contain soppy thoughts and images, so if you don't have a strong stomach grab a bucket!

All those crushes growing up, I never thought I'd love anybody more than I love Johnny Depp I mean of course Johnny Depp didn't know I existed but it was love. The heartache and tears of those that didn't deserve an ounce of anything then somebody comes along and you realise that those feelings you thought you had for other people actually weren't what you thought. Somebody that loves you doesn't mentally abuse you, they don't cheat on you and they don't make you cry. I've found it extremely difficult to trust people because of past relationships but I know I've never managed to love anybody which was a shame because I've got a big heart. It's not until I met my now boyfriend that I've finally realised how love is meant to feel, it's actually quite marvelous. It's the constant flutter in your stomach, the ache when you are away from them, the happiness, the laughter, feeling constantly safe, honesty and just not being able to match the perfection of the feeling with anything else.

When you have such a connection with somebody and you have so much in common, I don't think anything could beat it. Immaturity levels rise and maturity only happens when needs be. All the outings become little adventures and memories, I can't quite explain how I feel and non of this probably quite grasps it all. You'd do literally anything for that person and they become a part of you. Dancing to no music up and down the kitchen, playing xbox together, walking down muddy and slippy paths holding on for dear life, fist bumping, bickering over football because well one person doesn't support a very good team ;), falling asleep cuddled up, pulling silly faces and face timing from the toilet (don't act like you don't do it) haha, Those are just some of the things that make me love Ashley as much as I do.

I never ever thought about being with somebody forever until now. I value each and every second I get to spend with him and even then they are not enough. Goodbyes are always the hardest even though they aren't really goodbyes because goodbye means forever and it's never forever. My life without him I couldn't possibly imagine because he is my life and if I can make him happy forever, that will be my mission to do so.
So if you are lucky enough to have experienced or are experiencing love then you will know what I mean.