The long overdue catch up.

I have been AWOL for a few weeks, I needed a little break and just have time to myself. My weight loss had been a little crap to be honest. I built myself up to get my 9 and a half stone award and crumbled because I gained after being so good. But last week I did get it, I lost 1lb at another group which is in Stoke. I went in very nervous but the consultant was absolutely lovely, she made me feel so welcome as did her group members. When I told her I was visiting she asked how I have been doing and when I told her how much I'd lost she was amazed and asked if I had any before and after pictures. I shown her my latest one and a few of her members had a look too and they were so lovely and gave me so many compliments. I can't wait to go back to their group again! Which will be in 2 weeks time. It's a morning group too which I find better because I hate having to wait all day to eat properly. I missed weigh in last week due to being at Leeds Fest until Monday morning and I went straight to Ashley's so I booked a holiday. I know I would have gained which I'm fine with but hopefully being back on plan this week will have lightened the load.

Leeds Festival was absolutely incredible, we lived like tramps for the weekend but I can now die happy after seeing my favorite men perform live (ARCTIC MONKEYS). The whole weekend was just amazing, I've seen so many bands some of which I never really thought I'd enjoy but I did. On the Friday the best moments for me were seeing Macklemore & Ryan Lewis and Blink 182. Saturday was Papa Roach and Paramore (I felt 13 again) and Sunday, well, Sunday was the best bloody day! Imagine Dragons were just amazing, Jake Bugg and then the reason I wanted to go to the festival in the first place Arctic Monkeys they closed the whole weekend with such an amazing performance. I danced my sore little feet off and sang every song. It made being smelly and people throwing urine in cups every where worth while. I really hope the line up next year is amazing as I'd love to go again.

I hope you all have a brilliant weekend and you've not missed me too much.

So apprehensive!!!

So I've completed a full week of red days and I'm just hoping that I've done enough to get a good loss this week especially after the half a pound gain last week. I don't feel bloated, I feel like I've done enough but whether I have or not is down to the scales tonight. I'm currently cooking butternut squash circles so I can make a ham butty for my dinner! Butternut squash is an awesome substitute for bread and it gives you extra super free. I will let you know how I do on instagram later and I will do a blog post tomorrow at some point. I really want to be in my 13's by next week because we go to Leeds fest but to do that I need to lose 6lb (which would make me 13.13 and 1/2) and I some how don't think that's going to happen but I have 2 weigh in's to do it.

I'm feeling a bit sad today, really missing Ashley. I miss him normally after spending the weekend with him anyway but I miss him more so today. I had such a lovely weekend in Stoke, we used the remaining Morrisons vouchers I had (£20 worth) we got so much fruit and veg. I literally have ate my body weight in fruit since Thursday ha ha. Hopefully that is a good thing! We also played with Lego as we built the DeLorean I got him for our anniversary, it's rather awesome. The drive home last night was a bit scary we saw loads of police and ambulances on the A500 because a car was turned over and had gone into a tree it looked so bad! The rain and wind was terrible but today is really sunny with some heavy winds. I'm back in Stoke at the weekend so hopefully the weather will have cheered up and we will have a nice weekend.

I hope you all have a great week and weigh in goes smoothly.

Late update!

Sorry for the late weigh-in update, I've been so busy. Well I lie I haven't been that busy but I've just not had the chance to pick my laptop up. I gained half a pound at weigh in on Monday, don't get me wrong I was gutted but half a pound isn't the end of the world plus I felt really bloated. It also means I'm now 1.5lb away from my 9.5st award. I'm hoping having doing a week of red days I'll be the proud owner of my next award on Monday, fingers crossed! I didn't go to the gym last Sunday either after having 2 hours sleep I really wasn't in the mood for it but we are going this Saturday instead.
I went to watch Guardians of the Galaxy on Tuesday with Ashley, it was so bloody good! I want my very own Rocket and Groot! I'm going to watch Inbetweeners 2 tomorrow (Friday) with Lydia, it's going to be nice to interact with another girl for once as I think it's about time I made some friends.

I'm not going to Ashley's until midnight Friday because he's going to a gig so I have the full day to enjoy myself :D I went to Morrisons today with those £5 vouchers they put in the paper, my mum and little brother had one too so we got £15's worth of fruit for next to nothing! I also got 4 more papers to use at Ashley's over the weekend ha ha.

I had my last session at 42nd street today, it was quite sad because my support worker is amazing she's helped me so much. It was just filling in forms and talking, it's amazing to see how far I've come. I went there in May 2012 with no hope of ever getting out of the dark hole I was in but I now feel I've come out of it all a stronger person and I'm ready to take on anything life throws at me. I'm so proud of myself, I've learnt that I'm not a horrible person, my feelings do matter and when people say horrible things to me they are not true and I shouldn't start believing that they are. I did that for far too long and that was the reason I had no confidence.

I hope you all have had a great week and all your weigh in's are kind. Have a great weekend!