Lemmons!

I thought I would update you all on my weigh in from Monday night! After working my butt off all week trying to get my gain off, I'm pleased to say I lost 5lb! So I only need 1lb more and its all gone and I'm back on track. I'm back to losing a total of 7st 7lbs, I couldn't be happier to know its coming off again. Instead of pigging out after weigh in, I again stuck to my syns I had non through out the day so I had 2 flakes at 7syns each! Totally worth it. I took them and 3 child size bags of grapes to the cinema with Ashley, we went to watch Wolf of Wall Street. Which btw is one of the most awesome films I've seen in a while, I loved it! It was hilarious and Leonardo DiCaprio looked very very hot. If you have watched the film you will get the humor of the title to this post, I wont spoil it. We went to Sainsburys today so I could get some Puffed Wheat too so I can mix up my HEB's a little, because apparently you get a lot for 35g! We also went to Tesco to hunt for the Garlic Frylight but we had no luck as it's only the Tesco Extra stores that sell them, so Ashley said if he pops into Tesco during the week he will hunt me some down! He's an awesome boyfriend I know. He's been incredibly supportive with the whole Slimming World thing, I'm extremely lucky that he is. I'd have probably given up by now otherwise, but he helps and encourages me as much as he can. All the meals for the week ahead have been planned! Food diary will be out once again, I mean business again this week as I want another good loss. Once I get into the next stone bracket, I will probably share with you all how much I weighed and how much I weigh now. I love watching the numbers go down, it makes me incredibly happy to know all my hard work is paying off.

I hope you all have a great week!

Captain Fat Pants!

DINNER DINNER DINNER DINNER FAT PANTS!!!

Well today was quite a weird day for me, first weekend I've spent without Ashley for a long time! Safe to say I'm missing him a hell of a lot, but he's coming tomorrow evening so all is good in ones hood. Since I had time on my hands today and I was bored, I decided to get rid of some stuff. I went through a pile of clothes I'd left at the side of my door and found my old jeans, I decided it would be a fun idea to climb in one leg if it was possible and I did!!! I then waddled like a penguin to my little brothers room to show him and then decided to sit on my bum whilst still inside one leg of my jeans and slide down the stairs to show my mum and dad how awesome I looked. I'm so made up! These jeans are a size 26, to think they use to fit me with the tiniest bit of room in makes me so disappointed in myself, but yet I'm proud of how far I've come as I'm now into a size 16-18 jeans! I know I still have just over 6 stone to lose but I'm determined to get that off by Christmas this year. I'm so excited for Monday's weigh in, I've never said that before about being weighed but I know I've worked my arse off this week. In the picture above please pardon my messy hair and my second chin, mother bear hasn't quite got the hang of getting flattering angles! ;)

Everything is just too big!

Since losing over 7 stone I'm struggling with clothes online. I love ASOS and I order from their Curve range, I ordered a coat from there this week and it arrived today and it's too big! The only problem is they don't have any more in stock which makes me sad because it's actually a really nice coat. I did my measurements and I'm sure I'm doing them all wrong because they've not changed since August last year. I'm stuck in a rut I need a new coat but can never find any I like anywhere that I can try them on, but ASOS always have such beautiful coats. I could actually cry! I can't wait until I'm at target, one size and don't have to worry about where I can order from and if it will fit me. It's driving me bloody mad. I know I shouldn't dwell on the fact everything is too big but it would be nice to actually find something that fits me. Also has anybody ever noticed, when you was at your biggest they would never have the size you want only the smaller sizes? But now that you are smaller they only seem to have the bigger sizes?! I feel like I'm going to explode today, everything is getting on my nerves. I just hope all my hard work this week gives me a good weigh in result on Monday or I'll be really upset and frustrated.

February 14th.

(picture source: weheartit.com)

Am I the only person that doesn't understand Valentines Day at all? I mean, are you not supposed to show somebody you love them everyday of the year? Not just on this poor excuse of a day that just gives shops the chance to sell tacky gifts? Can't you tell I was never anybody's Valentine. I'm all for cards mind you, I like cards, cards are cool. I decided I'm still going to be a scrooge about it but I will get Ashley a card, we are doing something better than buying each other pieces of tack, we are going to watch the Lego Movie which comes out funnily enough on Valentines Day! I'm rather excited about this film too, the trailer is awesome!

Sorry if this post is a bit of a rant, but yeah I don't like Valentines Day. One thing I do like though is Dragon Fruit, I tried it for the first time on Monday and it was extremely pretty inside and out. I went to get some more today and Asda were sold out. WHAT THE HELL MAN!!!  I wasn't happy. I got Raspberries and Strawberries instead though, so all is well. I'm slightly addicted to the new Raspberry with chocolate sprinkles Mullerlight yogurts, they are so nice! Asda will probably be sold out of those soon too, USELESS! I've had 3 out of 7 100% days on plan this week too, I'm so proud of myself. I'm so determined to lose this 6lb gain, I've even been going on the exercise bike! I went on it for 20 minutes after weigh in on Monday and tonight (Wednesday) I stepped it up and was on it for 30 minutes, lets just say I could not feel my bum when I got off. I felt awesome afterwards though, so it was worth it. I have an appointment with my councillor tomorrow, I don't know why I dread going so much. Probably because I'm not very good at talking about how I feel, it's easy just to type/write it down. I always feel like whatever I say is stupid, it probably is but majority of the things that come out of my mouth are rather stupid anyway. Hopefully it will be okay, it's only for an hour.

She scares the filling out of my donut!

So the title of this post has no relevance to this actual post, it was a quote on my new Adventure Time poster and I thought it was rather amusing! I'm aware I've not posted for over a month but it's been hella' busy! So this is what has happened in that space of time...

I've gained weight, OOPS. Well I gained 4.5lb over Christmas and New Year, then a further 1.5lb whilst in London. So it's not all doom and gloom, it will be off very soon. So yeah, me and Ashley did the whole London trip! Best 4 days of my life! I had such an amazing time, London is a beautiful place. Monday we arrived around dinner time so we managed to check in to where was staying and cram a lot of sight seeing in. We walked through Hyde Park, visited Buckingham Palace, walked down the Mall, admired Big Ben, walked past John Prescott outside the House of Parliament and then had a wonder past Trafalgar Square and onto Covent Gardens (which we spent near enough everyday visiting). We had Lunch at a place called Tortilla which hands down makes the best Burrito's I've ever had in my life! Tuesday we went to The Tower of London, we had an hour tour with one of the Yeoman Warders, he was hilarious and the tour was awesome! In the afternoon we used the tickets Ashley's mum had got us to visit the London Dungeons, 2 hours of my life I'll never get back! I was pooing my pants all the way round! Wednesday we went to Madame Tussaud's, that was awesome! We went to a 4D Marvel experience at the end which I really enjoyed. We then spent the rest of the day doing awesome stuff such as SHOPPING! We also went to Choccy Woccy Doo Dah and indulged in a chocolate sundae and a milkshake each, heavenly doesn't quite describe what was going on in my mouth during this time. I had a bad experience with the MAC stores in London, non of the staff were at all helpful and didn't acknowledge us until we were leaving. Poor customer service! I refused to go back into one until we got back to Manchester. London's Forbidden Planet on the other hand is fan-bloody-tastic! So much Adventure Time stuff, I bought so bloody much of it! Thursday we went to the Natural History Museum, my anxiety hit me at this point far too much noise due to large amount of groups of children. Rather strange to be quite honest, I thought I'd be a mess on the underground but I wasn't but a bunch of children triggered me off. The Museum was awesome though, I couldn't wait to visit it after watching David Attenborough's live 3D thing he did there. We took the underground to Kings Cross station after that so I could visit the Harry Potter shop!!! Ashley bought me Luna Lovegood's wand, I'm rather chuffed with it! Friday was the final day for us so we spent the morning after checking out at Sealife! I was in my element there, it was incredible. So many sharks, fish (obviously), 2 moohassive turtles, a crocodile and a lot of penguins! We spent a good few hours there, then to say goodbye we had our final Burrito from our favorite place. I've probably missed out so much awesome stuff, but that was majority of it!

This weekend Ruby had her puppies, she had 4! 3 boys and 1 girl, they are incredibly cute. Luna is due to drop anytime this week and I'm so excited to how many she has, she looks like a furry balloon at the moment and she waddles everywhere. It's rather amusing.
I have my determined head on this week with Slimming World, I want the 6lb I've gained off for Monday if not most of it. I didn't have a treat after weigh in like I normally would, instead I ate fruit and went on the exercise bike.

Anyway! Hope you are all well and have an awesome week!

One red bus and bubble beards.

I know I'm slacking on the whole blogging front! Deep apologies! I've had a tough week or so, after going so long without having a panic attack due to medication, I had a horrific one last week and it's set me back quite a lot. BUT this post isn't meant to be a gloomy one so we will forget about that, I've cried about it and it's over with now.

I've finally managed to colour one red bus in on my countdown to London for losing 14lb which is 4 weeks away and Christmas is next week. I've decided what will be will be if I don't lose the 14lb by then, then it's not a big deal. I want to enjoy Christmas without feeling guilty, I'm not going to ruin all my hard work but I'm not going to be a boring fart and not eat chocolate or drink Malibu! Chin, chin!
At the weekend with the help of my lovely boyfriend, I finally decided on what I want to do when I get to the uni stage after college. I want to be a mental health nurse, I may have mentioned wanting to be a Councillor in another post but I think mental heath nursing is exactly what I want to do. I want to make a difference, I might not be a superhero but if I can help somebody change their lives then it's a job I'd be extremely happy with. I super crap at maths, like ridiculously crap. So I will need to resit that as a GCSE at college, Ashley has been helping me with that, he's awesome I'm so lucky. I still need to see what A Levels I'm going to do but I have until next September to work that out.

I persuaded my mother to buy Matey bubble bath today, I haven't had a bath with that stuff since I was a nipper! I was so chuffed when she agreed to buy it. I had a bath with it tonight and kids have the best bubble bath ever. It makes more bubbles than all that grown up stuff, I even created an awesome bubble beard. Bubble beards are awesome, if I was a man I'd want one of those crazy biker men beards. I'd also want a Harley to go with it.

I'm off to watch Stoke vs Manchester United tomorrow at the Britannia Stadium with Ashley, I'm really excited. I can't cheer if we score though because I'm sat in the Stoke end. Should be interesting haha. I'm also off to watch The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug on Friday when I head back to Stoke for the weekend. I loved the first one and normally I'm never able to sit threw a film that is that long!

Hope you all have a good week :-)

It's the most wonderful time of the year.

Hello lovely people! Christmas is upon us and that means Christmas shopping and clothes shopping! I have dreaded clothes shopping for the past 12 years or so, because I could never go into the shops I wanted to. I always dreamed of being able to go in River Island and buying something really nice. I never stepped foot inside because well nothing was ever going to fit me, apart from their hats. Saturday morning arrived and myself and Ashley ventured into town. Guess what I did?! I went into River Island and I bought a pair of jeggings in a size 18S yes I have short legs and they fitted! So we went back on the Sunday and I got another pair in a different colour. I'm over the moon, yes it's jeggings and I'm aware that they stretch but they still are quite roomy I could probably have gotten away with a 16 if it wasn't for my thunder thighs! I also got a top from George at Asda on Monday afternoon in a size 18 and it was baggy, I'm flabbergasted by how smaller size my clothes are going. For somebody that once wore a 26-28 clothes, I never thought I'd be fitting into a size 18 of anything especially a size 18 in River Island. I maintained at weigh in last night too, but I feel smaller so I need to take my measurements again to see if there is a difference from when I last took them.

Happy slimming!